At the root of every large struggle in life is the need to be honest about something that we do not feel we can be honest about.
We lie to ourselves or other people because the truth might require action and action requires courage.
We say we “don’t know” what’s wrong, when we do know; we just wish we didn’t.
– Deb Caletti –
Sands of Time 
In my life, each time I think I might hurt someone, I’ve taken action…even if it made me miserable. In this scenario in my life, I know that my presence is hurting someone…but to act is to make myself miserable…and to not good reason, because it will not result in the hurting stopping whatsoever. The end result this other person fears will happen whether I take the action she’d like or not. So…to act as I’ve done in the past would wound me. I’ve never chosen my own happiness in this kind of circumstances before. It leaves me feeling a constant question of my ethics…and a constant concern for her. Uncomfortable place to be. Elle said to me once that maybe being her witness is a gift to us both. I don’t know…*shrugs*
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We know whats wrong, just don’t want to try and fail again..
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I so understand that one, And even tho I consider failures to be success in their own right; that is, we do in fact, lean more from failures than successes…..boy am I ever tired of all these lessons….better I think most of the time to just do what it is that I want to do and if someone comes along to walk my path for a time, they can stay or not. Up to them…..
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