Category Archives: Reflections in the Mirror

Introspection

Trust as a Feedback Loop

Trust issues have been either an outright recurring theme, or one that seems to wiggle in as a continual undercurrent lately in many discussions.  We seem to be individually and collectively exploring the trust we place both internally and externally … Continue reading

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Mirror, Mirror on the Wall

My blog buddy Shannee addressed these in her blog the other day. *sighs* This resonated so strongly with me, I found myself weeping. It’s time to look at this as well….to move forward. * Where do I feel I’ve betrayed … Continue reading

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on being a brat and respect

well…I guess I got what I deserved….OUCH…my ass hurt for quite some time after he was done with me. I knew he was annoyed (even tho he denied it ), when I was asked why I wasn’t going that night.  … Continue reading

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Morning Pages

I thought of you this morning.  And felt a bit sad over missing you…your touch, your scent.  How much I wanted you here with me this very minute.  I’m touch starved. I’m intimacy starved.  About 2 weeks is all I … Continue reading

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Monsters Under My Bed

It’s rare when I don’t sleep soundly.  Little wakes me anymore.  Gone are the days of sleeping with one eye open listening for restless and sick babies and then driving teens making back home safely again.  Oh, occasionally I have … Continue reading

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non monogomy

We talked about my date who is married but bailed because of some last minute changes….these conversations always seem to morph into something completely different…. guess I still have some issues with being comfortable in it all. I rarely copy … Continue reading

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Practicing what you preach

We’ve talked a lot the past week, he and I…my Colorado muse.  Allowing me to vent my fears, and at the same time going to great lengths to soothe my increasing angst.  I’m walking a line between freaking and being … Continue reading

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Pickalilly

I hope Greenwoman doesn’t mind too much about using the lily and the CnP job. *wink* It’s been a short week….at least work wise. I’ve switched to 4, 10 hour days and it’s been a bit difficult getting used to. … Continue reading

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Transitions

Ok, on some level I was flattered. I admit it. I have a great ass. And a pretty smackable one at that. *wink* But I don’t let strangers touch my ass. Actually, I’ve let relative strangers fondle my breasts. Hell, … Continue reading

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Updating Mastery

I worked myself into a funk this past week. Not like you could tell with the past two posts, right? Ugh. Another convenient path to diversion. Don’t wanna deal? Don’t wanna find solutions? Easy….just become depressed and then whine about … Continue reading

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I'm so-o-o tired

of: being alone making the decisions doing it all being alone work bullshit heartache a messy apartment being alone the fish not having a sacred space not being closer to the beach being nice all the time trying to be … Continue reading

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Passion & Intensity

He quietly and patiently explained again, in terms I was finally able to hear, You’re 5 foot and barely 100 pounds soaking wet. People take one look at you and assume your size equates to your demeanor. Bad assumption. You’re … Continue reading

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Overcoming

I was always a strong swimmer, despite not learning to swim until the age of 8 or so. Mountain lakes, streams, ponds, the ocean and of course the pool. Between the age of 12 and 16, essentially all through middle … Continue reading

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Tapping Creativity

I’m quite sure now that what previously pushed me to write anything at all had little to do with the desire to do so. More and more it seems that the exercise has always been cathartic in its entirety, heavily … Continue reading

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Emancipation & Power

Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery; None but ourselves can free our minds. From Redemption Song, Bob Marley We spend an inordinate amount of time chasing our fears. Our fear drives us to both action and inaction. It’s the primary re-action … Continue reading

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