what I originally set out with this blog (in order of course, because I am a Capricorn)

1) a back up for my blog on Adult Fuck Finders and Blogger for documentation of life as I live it…much as my journal is but with slightly less rambling than my morning pages.

2) less censorship with more features and creative options

3) a place to play with words..that is…a place to work through my process and editing.  I need to see *how* my  brain works as a key to understanding where I need to go with it.  How to tap the places I need in there.  Are there patterns in my thought process?  I’m sure there are but I don’t *see* them.  Is that beneficial?   Or do I just need to go with  not having an understanding. What I am hoping is that i can eliminate some steps with that understanding.  I would love to see others do the same…..work through their editing processes and help me work through mine (ulterior motives, lol).  Editing someone else’s work is one thing. Editing our own is another matter.    Participatory for all who want.  Or not. *laughing*

All of that aside, I really *need* to express whatever my heart (or head depending on the day) feels….good, bad or otherwise to come forth. Cathartic at time, but what the fuck ever….

But like others have found over time,  life has a habit of becoming intensely personal in those painful but necessary moments. Raw, sharp, harsh, confused, fearful, whatever that emotion happens to be, as the humans we all are.

I’ve never had huge issues with my blog being public although I have had issues with some readers who read here and make others pay or manipulate them with information gleaned here.  That’s not deterred me for the most part.   But, I’ve noticed over the past 2 months, I taken to briefly posting, pulling and deleting.   Burning bowl posts.   I don’t like doing that.   I want to live better with mine….not toss them away.   And that’s what it feels like.  Getting rid of something instead of learning to observe when they come along and turning them away with intention.  Just my personal philosophy.

And so the point of this long windedness this morning….Gillette asked me how she could still read here and honestly, I just never considered any options last night other than making each post private as need be.

So, not sure what to do.  I don’t want to do a private blog.  That was never my intent with yesterdays decision.   I don’t want to do invitations either.  It seems like a hassle and I have no intention of keeping this a private space as Shannee has done.  It’s a temporary situation for me.

I may do password protected posts and give out that password if anyone wants it….but I have to see if that type post even appears on a reader/feed

Anyone know?