The 4th Channel

That’s the crux of it…I’m looking for that deep, 4 channel experience with another.  For complete surrender with another.  I’m close…but it’s not automatic.  I’m still guarded.

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1 Response to The 4th Channel

  1. ((hugs))

    I like to think I am guarded, but I am not…And then I find myself wide open and terrified and angry at being opened again by one I cannot have.

    Keep opening though. I am convinced that’s where life holds the most meaning…even when i feel so angry and despairing as I do just now.

    ((hugs))

    *sighs* A close guy friend tells me that I’m very open. And then I do get terrified. And yes, angry about not being able to hide behind anything. To BE vulnerable…For them to see who I am…as if that makes any difference-it doesn’t-yes by one(s) I cannot, and probably never can have in a way I need. But still, our paths are forever crossed. Who knows why or what for….I sure don’t. I just don’t like the feeling. *Kisses you have no idea how much I need the hugs right now….actually on second thought…I’m pretty sure you do. ((hugs back))

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