This week turned me upside down. Over and over, rolling and tumbling…

Amazing. Fuckin’ Fantastic. Wonderous.

I feel like I’m coming out of a long sleep. Out of hibernation. Shaking the cobwebs loose. The sun is a bit brighter, my vision a bit sharper, my mind less cluttered. I’m stretching, growing, changing. Clear, more confidant, determined, and more accepting than I have been in months…make that years.

It’s interesting how things work when you let them. A suggestion, a conversation, and book made all the difference and will for some time to come. Maybe forever.
It’s the right time for me.

I was never all that good with change. Changes…hard to accept. Always questioning, processing, and somehow finding a way to resist. Don’t make it so very hard on yourself.

I’ve let the week flow. Important lesson on choice. Yes, my choice to let it flow. And to take it in-all of it-and flow with it…

It doesn’t mean I’ll never again wonder, process, hope, and yes, sometimes resist. I can worry less. Open my heart.

I’m not an unhappy person. Thoughtful, yes. Emotional, yes-generally about everything. I LIKE to feel, to laugh, and to love. And the pain? It’s still a part of it all. But smaller, now.

So, this week I spent time with a man I really like. In conversation, awesome sex, food, conversation, teasing, awesome sex, relaxing, laughing, napping, awesome sex, conversation and food…something I asked for and received. Not expected. Nothing casual here for me.

I laughed with friends, soothed their fears, listened, hugged, shared, kissed them with love because I wanted to…

I drank with the boys who start and put out fires for a living, talked shit with them and laughed till I almost cried at their testosterone filled opinions of who is pussy whipped and who is not.

I did my job and I did it well. Without hesitation.

I didn’t do housework because I didn’t want to.

I read blogs and was inspired.

I read a book, for me…and I decided to change, to be me again…

I wear my heart on my sleeve. And I like it that way.
Journey with me…open your heart a bit with me